So I was going back through my posts. This is normally what happens … I’m gone for a year and I forgot what I had written. My post about mega churches made me laugh … It started:
So I saw this post on Facebook today that got me heated, but I chose not to respond because I’m not about losing my temper on social media … Been there. Done that. Felt like an idiot.
I fell into this trap a few weeks ago and have been dwelling on it ever since. Let’s go back … to just after Hurricane Harvey hit Houston … *insert Wayne’s World-esc sound effects and a wavy screen – cut to me looking at Facebook –
Scrolling down my news feed I see all these posts about how Harvey is affecting folks in Houston. My heart is really breaking. The rest of the day I check in on it. Throughout the course I start seeing things about that silly Mega Church everybody loves to hate not opening its doors (coincidentally I think that meme I talked about in the Mega Church post was an image of this church).
I was getting increasingly agitated with all the posts I was seeing. I just didn’t understand what business it was of anyone’s whether or not someone or some entity was or wasn’t doing what we think they’re “supposed” to do … why are we passing judgment when we should be helping. There are bigger fish to fry. Sowing hate and discord doesn’t help. I was fuming by the end of the day.
Then I saw another stupid meme. This one about the number of churches in the Houston area – somewhere in the 2000 area – and how many we listed as open and accepting refugees/donations etc. – somewhere less than 100 – and I lost it. I lost my temper, my composure, my filter, my ability to keep my mouth shut – and I let loose my typing fingers.
I posted without proofing, without censor, without breathing, the most cringeworthy response to that meme in particular, paying no attention to who posted it, or what my post might do to my relationships.
When I say it was awful, I mean I used words I’ve never used out loud, even as a sailor. This post damaged my ability to hold my head up high and say, I’m a Christian and I choose to live my life by Christian principles. To this moment, months later, I am embarrassed by this post – even after apologizing for it and deleting it. I have relationships that may never recover from this post.
How ridiculous does that sound? A Facebook post may make it so that people I have known for quite some time may never speak to me again or look at me in the same light. A stupid Facebook post.
So … I disabled my Facebook account. I figured a) I may be too embarrassed to ever post anything again, b) this wasn’t the first time I had wanted to post something like this – I was sure it wouldn’t be the last, and c) what’s the point anyway?
Seriously. Facebook has been an ongoing distraction and irritation for me for way too long. I could be reading books, writing blog posts, or being a productive parent and spouse. Don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of people with active Facebook accounts that do all of these things without issue … I’m just not one of them.
So … other than Pinterest, I don’t social media anymore and I’m more than ok with this.